Self Reflection - Thoughts - How it originates

Why Am I thinking about other person than myself? how did that happen to me? What is it about selfish? Why am I accepting other people's nature? if someone says, they cannot why am I accepting than resisting? how one person accepts one thing and the other person doesn't? What to be selfish? I want my dad to come and see me whether he has money or not - he can keep saying he doesn't have money but that cannot or should not stop the love in any form in seeing each other. I can understand other person feeling but I also have a feeling to be addressed. why should I not see my mom or dad for long time? why should I alone spend seven thousand or ten thousand to express my love every time all this ten years, I have been listening to what they say, but hereafter they should listen to me and I will ensure all of the family members are taken care well and justice to everyone. I will set things right! Let my mom spend money for phone call and ask me how am I doing. Let my dad plan his...

What actually happened when my loved ones are getting angry on me? why am I getting angry on my loved one? after things are back to normal, if we observe what's really happening and why is that happening? every moment in life, we are evolving to another level but we are holding onto our justifications or an image about anything or anyone. I get angry when my dad doesn't talk with me and why is he not willing to talk - he is carrying something in his mind and he wanted to express the emotions onto me. My ways of expectation of expressing his emotions is just by talking but did i do the same thing to Poornima earlier? No - when things are not as expected why don't we talk and resolve? what's stopping?  Someone is not behaving to me as expected?     what's my expectation? lets talk and sort it out, can we talk everything and sort it out? do I listen what other person goes through or do i expect other person listen to me? what is the expectation? should i expect a chang...

 Ask - When we Ask for Annadhanam donation? what happens? what happens in my mind? will they give? what do they think about me if I ask? if they say no, does it hurt me? if they give beyond what I expect, does it makes me happy?  Why these questions are coming to me at first place? why my ask is not irrelevant of the outcome? why am I bothered about the outcome than the intention? maybe the reason for all these questions are due to judgmental? someone judge me that am like this and I don't want that to happen. if I want someone to be non-judgmental about me then isn't that itself judgmental? if so, why am I still longing about these questions inside me? As Bhagawad Gita says, Is this called maya(meaning maayai)? Beyond all this, after long time, I have nourished my ego by saying to me that - "No, I can still ask without being judgmental" EGO: how can i go and ask someone for money? what happens to my ego? It's easy to give money when someone asks but its not so ea...

After listening to the discussions between Mr Gopinath and Mr Sivasankaran Sir(Aircel Founder), the meaning of selfish got changed. When I look out for material things which I need for myself the accumulation of things happens.  whatever we do, if we consider everything as an action, either taking from others or giving to others, if my action is towards giving to others and if I'm selfish in doing it, then it turns out to be both selfish and selfless. In this context, I'm selfish and at the same time selfless - The journey or attitude towards this mindset changes the way we look things outside world or inside world. How can I be both selfish and selfless? then do you expect me to give whatever I have? What is giving? Giving is always only money and material things? or Giving is always only about time? Giving is knowledge? what exactly to be given? If I feel the other person is poor and If I feel he doesn't have more money than me and If I give my money to him, he may feel h...